Eating Crow

Tony Robbins and I cooled down after a vigorous run to down town Port Townsend from our motel by the sea. I was looking forward to the outsize Jacuzzi soak after the run, and also logically knew I needed a cool down before immersing warm muscles into the water. So Tony and I chatted. Well,… Continue reading Eating Crow

Self Awareness enneagram First, here's to meanruthie for Challenging me with self awareness as a topic. I am so self aware  HAHAHAH   well, until I take tests that show me myself to my face. Then I'm just Carmen living in a confused version of my own vertical prison. Much love to you. And to my… Continue reading Self Awareness enneagram


Johnny died today, eleven years ago. Well, it was probably today. He was found sitting peacefully against a tree by some hikers. They thought he was sleeping until they came back hours later and noticed he had not moved and had a needle in his arm. He had overdosed on an eightball- crack cocaine and… Continue reading Johnny

Self Aware of a Crappy Attitude

I was busy being self aware the other day by telling my husband what to do. "What you SHOULD do is..." and "What you're not doing is..." Look at me having all the answers. As life often time will hand you your own behavior, life spoke up and I realized in a moment of husband… Continue reading Self Aware of a Crappy Attitude

Self Awareness

In light of all of the wonderful recent blogs about self-worth, I thought, why not explore this a little bit further. For me, increasing the awareness of myself, my responses, actions, and emotions has been instrumental to me having a more rounded idea of my self-worth. Now we can talk about self-awareness, self-help, and all… Continue reading Self Awareness

Self Worth and Parenting

Today is the day that my family and I have been waiting for and dreaming about. I expected to wake up with an excited outlook and a feeling of joy. Instead I awoke with the usual feeling of anxiety; worrying to excess about anything and everything all at once. Some days I’m able to push… Continue reading Self Worth and Parenting

Seeds of Self Worth

I am five years old and hiding in the closet, the baby safely hidden in a bottom drawer; waiting for the shouting and screaming to get quieter, to know how long to stay hidden. And finally, loud knocking on the front door and a man yelling my name, promising it’s safe to come out. I… Continue reading Seeds of Self Worth

Self Worth in Action

I posed this question of value and self worth and then I sat on the idea while everyone else wrote about their value. The moments of recognition and the turning points were  humble and loving. We all make mistakes, but if we continue to practice doing better, we will succeed. We all share 1 trait… Continue reading Self Worth in Action


The prompt is: what is your worth? Personal worth in my mind: The search for the never ending answer or confirmation that our being on this planet is valued, our existence not merely a waste of emotions, validation that who we are matters at least to ourselves. Our worth. More specific to this blog “MY WORTH”. I… Continue reading MY WORTH